I Am God.

A lot has happened to me and still they are happening. I have just had an awakening and things have started to look pretty different I realised I’ve been fed a whole bunch of lies all my life and I feel really hurt. The deceit in all of this is heart shattering. I am new, I am awakened, I can never go back to being like I used to be.

This consciousness is the best thing that ever happened to me and I won’t trade it for anything in the world. I am proudly who I am, I feel no sorry about it. First I’m gonna say fuck religion, yes fuck it, in every way it comes. It has done so much harm to us, we have been misled and robbed of our real self. We have been given a white man’s version of God when all these while we are Gods. It is a huge shame.
Well I’m going to have to shove this down your throats and you have to swallow..

God is not a man in the sky. God is an infinite intelligent energy. He is not a creator but the source of creation. Everything in life has infinite intelligence as long as you move, eat and breath. I am a part of the infinite energy of creation.

I am God.



The Eleven Laws Of MA’AT.

0. Law of Amen – You were made in the likeness of a peace that nothing can disturb. Reclaim your peace that you may attain to your reason for coming into existence – the enjoyment of life.

1. Law of Ausar – Your nature is an unconquerable peace, therefore nothing or no one in the world can be against you. All experiences come to you to promote your reclamation of peace, that you may in turn, acquire wisdom and power.

2. Law of Tehuti – When all of your thoughts, feelings and actions reflect the Word of God, then the power of God’s spirit and a peace that nothing can challange will flow through your being.

3. Law of Sekher – When the emotions of Man manifest in response to the Word of God, they have the power to influence the course of any and all events in the world.

4. Law of Ma’at – God needs you in order to come into the world. Fulfilling God’s need is the highest act of love, and only through your love for God can you fulfill your love for others. Become the Love of God in the world for the protection of the world.

5. Law of Herukhuti – Know that God neither punishes nor rewards nor protect, that you will have the comfort of controlling these yourself.

6. Law of Heru – You have the power but not the right to ignore God’s Law. Choose to follow the Law of God with the Love and Joy that grows out of understanding and the wisdom and power of God’s spirit will flow through your being.

7. Law of Het-Heru – It is not what you imagine. It is who is imagining. Are you a human or a divine being?

8. Law of Sebek – It is not what you think or what you affirm. It is who is thinking and affirming. Are you a human or a divine being?

9. Law of Auset – Prepare to sacrifice everything to become the vessel of God on earth, and you will, in turn, receive everything.

10. Law of Geb – Know that from heaven you came and to heaven you will return, seek not enduring works on earth.

Metu Neter – Vol 1. Pg. 17-19:

Let’s begin by making clear that the Laws of God bear no resemblance to man’s laws. They are not injunctions or commandments to be obeyed. They are not rules, prohibitions, or regulations prescribed to govern the behavior of man. Neither are they conventions that sages have met and agreed upon.

They are Principles that explain the nature and interaction of the forces and principles that influence man’s life—his/her thinking, feelings, actions and destiny. The observance of these Principles will enable the individual to live in harmony with these principles and forces, thus gaining access to God’s wisdom and spiritual power—all else that is needed or is important in life will follow. They apply to the 11 spheres of spiritual influence operating in man’s spirit and the world.

The presentation of the laws does not appeal to belief, faith or comprehension through some, as yet unmanifested, “higher spiritual” faculty. They appeal to man’s reasoning power and common experience.

They aim at providing man with an unshakable conviction based on logically derived understanding, given that it is thus that the power of the spirit is mobilized to fully act in the world. There might seem to be a contradiction in the presentation of the Laws of God as being based on logical reasoning. The contradiction exists only in the minds of people who have failed to understand the foundations of science and of religion.

The word “science” comes from the Latin “scire”, meaning “to know”—actually rules for determining that something is truly known. To oppose and exclude science from the spiritual and religious domain is to say that there is incapacity to attain true knowledge regarding God and the shaping factors of spirituality and religion. This may be true of some religions, especially those that have been erected upon belief and faith.

It is simple. If you can prove a point, especially with the certainty provided by the scientific method, then you wouldn’t have to ask someone to believe or to have faith in your presentation. We do not say that we have faith or believe that combining two atoms of hydrogen with one of oxygen will result in the formation of water. We know.

The erroneous argument that places religion and spirituality in a separate category from science, mathematics and logic—belief and faith versus reason and knowledge—will be fully refuted in the course of this book [Ma’at, The 11 Laws of God].

This is not the first time that such knowledge has been unveiled. It is well known to a few scholars that several religions of antiquity were not based on faith or belief, but on knowledge. Some such were the Gnostic (gnosis is Greek for knowledge) religions of Greece (the mysteries of Orpheus, Eleusis), Mithraism of the Persians and ancient Roman Empire, and many others—most of which were derived from the religious systems of Kamit (ancient Egypt).

The connection between religion with logic, law and science can be inferred from the coining of some relevant words. The term “religion” is related to the Indo-European root “leg”, which means “to collect, or connect”, from whence the Greek “legein”, and the Latin “legere”, meaning “logic” and “legal”. The men who coined these words connected religion to law and logic (which determines the legitimate connection between things). There was no thought of separating religion from the domain of logical thinking. This book will make that clear.

Pg. 104-105:

Taken as intricate parts of a whole, the 11 laws work together to support the fact that man is a divine being—the likeness of God, or better yet, God’s vehicle of manifestation in the world.

It is clear from the preceding [see section on reasoning under each Law] that reasoning taking the 11 Laws of God as the premises—in reality one premise with 11 angles—provides man with the understanding that allows her/him to joyfully consent to choose to follow God’s Will and Word. How else can man achieve salvation? We have almost 6000 years of recorded history to bear testimony to the disastrous result of man following his intellect and feelings as guides to living.

In the Hebraic version of the Qabala, understanding (Binah) is cataloged at the 3rd sphere. In the Kamitic Tree of Life, understanding is the conclusion of reasoning that occurs at the 6th sphere (Heru), while the 3rd sphere corresponds to spiritual power (the Shekhem division of the spirit). The apparent contradiction is resolved when it is understood that the Word of God as embodied in divine revelation at the 2nd sphere, Tehuti, or in the 11 Laws of God must be subjected to the deductive reasoning process. In other words, it is not enough to grasp or believe the Laws of God; their logical understanding, thus achieved, sets the spiritual power of God in motion.

Another way of looking at this is to understand that to live the 11 Laws of God with love and understanding is to be the image of God. At some point in life, the “image of God” as a beneficent father or mother, or both, must be replaced with the “vision” of God “as” the laws governing the world. You must walk, talk, breathe the Laws of God—they are the image of your Being.

Observing the 11 Laws of God is to be as God and to become the vehicle of God in the world—God’s living and true temple. This was stated in a more poetical manner in the spiritual literature of Kamit. The fact that the Godliness within man is not manifest at first was portrayed in the death of Ausar (man’s divine Self). It was the function of Heru (man’s will) to resurrect Ausar by defeating the forces of evil within man (Set), which prevented the appearance of man’s divinity in the world.

Missing An Angel

I thought it would be easy to just let her go as I said, but it turned out I was wrong. As the day approached I felt this feeling of emptiness within me, like some part of me was going on a journey so far. She is not the only one, yes, they are four of them but I have never experienced this type of separation, the only one we had was less than two weeks and it wasn’t easy then. Now I am facing three months of being away from her, of not hearing her voice, of not holding her  every morning when she wakes, of having no sweet girl to scream at and then hug later. I am missing my girl, I will miss her so much.
I ask God to help me with her, watch over her and direct her. I have prayed and prayed in fact I have gone through the prayers severally in my heart to check if I missed any part out. I have asked for all a mother could ask for that I have given up and given God my girl.
It is not an easy task to see your little angel get separated from you, it brings tears to the eyes even though they are tears of joy. She is going out to meet the world with different people, personality and perception. I hope she doesn’t deviate from the virtues that have been instilled in her, I hope she threads always the path of peace, love,  equality and fairness. Most of all I hope she gets to understand people and how they reason, I just wish her well.
I hope I don’t embarrass myself when she eventually strolls in and waves at me, it will be hard, really hard for me. But as a mother I will not relent in prayers, I have loved and will always love her and God loves her too that is why I trust God for her safety and good health.
I  haven’t experienced this before but I am faithful and


moreover it is a phase in her life that leads to greatness. It is well. My prayer is that you be blessed, favoured and respected. May your light shine so bright to affect the lives of your peers positively.
Always remember Love Over Hate.

I also needed to tell Chiadi these things…

Chiadi, I need you to know these ten things…

1. It is not your job to keep the people you love happy.  Not me, not Daddy, not your brothers, not your sister, not your friends.  I promise, it’s not.  The hard truth is that you can’t, anyway.

2. Don’t lose your physical fearlessness.   Please continue using your body in the world: run, jump, climb, throw.  I love watching you swinging or climbing into the high branches of a tree.  There is both health and a sense of mastery in physical activity and challenges.

3. Don’t be afraid to share your passions.  You are sometimes embarrassed that you still like to play with dolls, for example, and you worry that your friends will make fun of you.  Anyone who teases you for what you love to do is not a true friend.  This is hard to realize, but essential.

4. It is okay to disagree with me, and others.  You are old enough to have a point of view, and I want to hear it.  So do those who love you.  Don’t pick fights for the sake of it, of course but when you really feel I’m wrong, please say so.  You have heard me say that you are right, and you’ve heard me apologize for my behavior or point of view when I realize they were wrong.  Your perspective is both valid and valuable.  Don’t shy away from expressing it.

5. You are so very beautiful.  Your face now holds the baby you were and the young woman you are rapidly becoming.  My eyes and cleft chin and your father’s coloring combine into someone unique, someone purely you.  I can see the clouds of society’s beauty myth hovering, manifest in your own growing self-consciousness.  I beg of you not to lose sight with your own beauty, so much of which comes from the fact that your spirit runs so close to the surface.

6. Keep reading.  Reading is the central leisure-time joy of my life, as you know.  I am immensely proud and pleased to see that you seem to share it.  That identification you feel with characters, that sense of slipping into another world, of getting lost there in the best possible way?  Those never go away.  Welcome.

7. You are not me.  We are very alike, but you are your own person, entirely, completely, fully.  I know this, I promise, even when I lose sight of it.  I know that separation from me is one of the fundamental tasks of your adolescence, which I can see glinting over the horizon.  I dread it like ice in my stomach, that space, that distance, that essential cleaving, but I want you to know I know how vital it is.  I’m going to be here, no matter what, Chiadikobi.  The red string that ties us together will stretch.  I know it will.  And once the transition is accomplished there will be a new, even better closeness.  I know that too.

8. It is almost never about you.  What I mean is when people act in a way that hurts or makes you feel insecure, it is almost certainly about something happening inside of them, and not about you.  I struggle with this one mightily, and I have tried very, very hard never once to tell you you are being “too sensitive” or to “get over it” when you feel hurt.  Believe me, I know how feelings can slice your heart, even if your head knows otherwise.  But maybe, just maybe, it will help to remember that almost always other people are struggling with their own demons, even if they bump into you by accident.

9. There is no single person who can be your everything.  Be very careful about bestowing this power on any one person.  I suspect you are trying to fill a gnawing loneliness, and if you are you inherited it from me.  That feeling, Woolf’s “emptiness about the heart of life,” is just part of the deal.  Trying to fill that ache with other people (or with anything else, like food, alcohol, numbing behaviors of a zillion sorts you don’t even know of yet) is a lost cause, and nobody will be up to the task.  You will feel let down, and, worse, that loneliness will be there no matter what.  I’m learning to embrace it, to accept it as part of who I am.  I hope to help you do the same.

10. I am trying my best.  I know I’m not good enough and not the mother you deserve.  I am impatient and fallible and I raise my voice.  I am sorry.  I love you and your siblings more than I love anyone else in the entire world and I always wish I could be better for you.  I’ll admit I don’t always love your behavior, and I’m quick to tell you that.  But every single day, I love you with every fiber of my being.  No matter what.

Happy Married Life To My New Friend.

Wow…its been so long. And I have had some learning times while away, anyways its been good all the same. I made a new friend who recently got married, she is as beautiful as awesome. She loves her husband so much but I won’t, I can’t and above all I don’t get jealous, she is about he same age I was when I got married and had about the same brain I had then too *wink* …u don’t expect me to say she is more matured in that age than I was nah, abi? Hahaha.


Life is beautiful when you marry the one you love and more beautiful if the one you marry loves you. I could see the excitement and sparkle in her eyes as she gave me a sneak preview into their life and love so far …I practically smiled all through the monologue. Well, she is indeed a good story teller and her life and love so far has been good and all I ask God is to put a super to the already good as she makes this transition to marriage.
Marriage is a new ball game, feelings get deep, anxiety lessens and we all relax our selves into oneness together forever. All I could tell her was for her to be happy because that mood affects everything else even her husband. She should be herself, love and treat herself right so she can love and treat her husband and other people in her marriage the same. You can’t give what you don’t have.
My dear new friend who found me worthy enough to confide in and share some of your treasured moments with, may your joy be continually full. May this your union multiply your love and peace. May you and your sweetheart do everything in love….even when u have disagreements kindly do that in love too *smiling*.
I love you. HML

Just Speaking My Mind.

It is amazing how things happen, things you never thought would dare to have happened and you find yourself living a different life. We all have dreams and aspirations that in a twinkle of an eye disappears when plans are not properly made or decisions are not properly followed.
The beauty of life is that one can always get to ones destination irrespective of the path one chooses. I have come to the realisation that all lives do not follow the same pattern even though they have the same goals set – self fulfilment and success. As a child I wanted to do so many things but sadly my sweet parents couldn’t reason beyond what they knew, so I was sent to school where I was taught to take whatever  life gives me and be glad.
I had great love for arts especially TV, at age five I could read a newspaper in fact it was something I did for my dad whenever he had and uninvited guest to feign he had no time. I’ve always dreamt of a being a TV star. I listened to news on national television so much I wanted to be a newscaster.  Then years later I discovered my passion for acting and my dad did all he could to discourage – me even when I got a script- because, according to him actresses were wayward women.
Acting is a dream I will never let go even as I have evolved into a woman with many other plans. Today I realise my passion for the girl child, for women who are hurt in any way. I want to help younger generation girls accept their femininity in order to lead healthier lives. I want to sexually educate them with all the information to guide them from emotional and physical hurt.
I will use my passion and career to help womanhood. To bring unity, love and peace amongst women ….this is all I want to do. To build stronger women.
I am a lover of women.
Together we will build a strong and formidable force.

I have a conscience

Morality exits outside of religious doctrine. One does not need to be religious to know that murder, rape or incest is wrong. Unlike religious folks who need to be told what to do or what to believe simply because relying on their own judgement is not allowed.
Religion is a poison of the mind .


In some religions women are treated as second class citizens, homosexuals and apostates are put to death . Some religions instruct the husband that if he should fear high- handedness from his wife he is allowed to beat her (lightly either with a hanky or a feather as claimed by some apologists). Firstly, the fact that the husband has been given instructions to beat her is immoral. And secondly – I have not come across anything that suggest a feather or hanky. Once again, this is all lies to cover up the fact that some religion encourages violence towards women. In some religious homes a woman cannot even maintain her own finances? Her husband does that for her. Religion incites conflict and causes segregation as far as I am concerned. Religion makes you lazy to think for yourself. One is oppressed (mind , body and spirit) and  to be quite frank, it is load of hot shit.